scratch it with my nails or use a broken pencil on it

my blood pressure went up just reading that

velvet doesnt get me bad but paper is the devil’s texture. best explination i’ve found is Tactile Defensiveness. light touch with movement, especially on the type of skin that can grown hair, sets off the nervous systems fight/flight response. like nails on a chalk board meets being zapped by a low volt current. and varies in intensity from “this shirt makes me feel a little anxious” to “if you hand me a pencil instead the correct pen i will do violance upon your entire family tree”.

debain, with xfce if i need a desktop. mostly because i started on xubuntu. started learning sysadmin stuff when all i could afford was a potato with salvaged computer components shoved in it. xfce considered that excessively over powered. ended up loving the way i set up my xfce env, and probably wont change it much over the next 20yrs because theres no need. so when cononical got extra gross it was easy to just move to debian and carry on with my life.