Well I offer my help where I can, but it always was like: “We are already enough people but thanks anyways.” as responses before I built my house.

So I asked my one friend who is actually the “organizer” of our friend group if he needs help moving but he always said: “Thanks I’ll reach out if we need more people but we are enough thanks.” And he never really reached out and asked for my help. Same goes with two others I offered to help them when moving in 2021 during Covid but they declined cause of Covid rules… So yeah I offered everyone my help in some way in the past but no one really needed my help.

So in my case I never helped anyone but I offered my help. That is one reason why I didn’t directly ask my friends for help either because well I never helped them (even if I wanted to) so was hoping they’d just ask if I need help like I asked them.

But in the end I would have also refused to get help from them but it would have been nice if someone asked.

Kind of okay.

I’m focusing a lot on myself since January and been going to the gym a lot.

I am noticing though that I am being excluded to things I haven’t been excluded before by some of my friends. We use to go hang around and drink a lot, they still drink a lot in fact but it’s just not my goal anymore.

I feel like I am slowly losing a ton of friends. And at the age of 33 it’s really hard to find other friends. Not that I want to replace them or they did anything bad to me besides not asking me to go out anymore for obvious reasons that I don’t want to drink anymore… but it’s still kind of a scary process.

I am really wondering if I should just reduce gym and drink again. But at the same time I love going to the gym now and really am not in the mood for hangovers at 32.

And once you did that all you have to do is