I keep thinking about stuff like:

• The fact that there are galaxies I won’t be able to visit (because I’d be dead before humanity goes interstellar)
• The face that my childhood sucked and I could never really experince a normal childhood again in this lifetime (feeling of “nostalgia”)
• The fact that there are secrets the government is hiding that the average civillian will never be able to know (fear of “missing out”)
• We may never discover the true nature / true origin of the universe (at least, not in my lifespan)
• Not knowing if the world is even real (as in, simulation theory, solipcism)
• There would be Movies and TV shows I wont be able to experience (fear of missing out)
• There were technology that I never got to experience “in the moment”: telegraphs, black and white tv, radios, old gaming devices, etc… (I mean yes, they still exist, but its not the same as experiencing it in that time period). To be clear, I still prefer current and future technology, but I just want to go back in time for like a week to check things out like it was back then, then come back, you get what I’m saying?

I can’t ever just stop thinking and relax. My brain is so fucked.

This isn’t like a “phase”, this has been my life for years. Constant non-stop thoughts. 😓