A weird and chaotic mess.

1. Generic financial issues that vex everyone

2. One of my close friends is in the hospital because of a chest infection

3. The child of one of my best friends/brother is in the hospital. Couple of days ago they had blood tests done and within 6 hours were at a hospital and prepping for surgery/chemo. Diagnosed with leukemia.

4. My CPAP machine is throwing a fit and I can’t figure out why.

5. gestures vaguely

So like I’m personally fine, for the most part, but just worried as hell for my friends.

Fall. Weather gets tolerable, the bugs die like they deserve to, the kids fuck off.

I’ve got a black cat named Una. She’s been laying about, as per usual. I went in and laid down on my bed for a bit to relax. She’s got a few different relaxing spots in my room but the one she was in when I entered was up on a bookshelf. On the top there’s a pad that reflects heat back that she likes. I went in and pet her a few times, got some mrrps and purrs, and then laid down on the bed. She looked at me for a few seconds and then got up, hopped down, got up to the little hammock that hangs off the headboard a foot away from me, and curled up back to sleep while purring full force.

I see a lot of this type of behavior and still I question whether she loves me… Not sure why. Depression is a bitch, huh?

I cannot stand anthropormophized characters. I don’t know what it is and well aware that it’s a personal thing but it drives me absolutely insane. That also feels way too… cutesy. Death Note I liked because it’s dark. Whether its for teenagers doesn’t matter so much to me as the tone of it. All the shows that I watch are usually pretty darker in tone, mysterious as hell, and with a plot that you’ve gotta figure out. Stuff like Severance, Westworld, Hannibal, The Expanse, even How to Get Away with Murder. Character driven stories that have a mystery with wits being involved more than strength but that also are dark. Death Note surprised me because it managed to hit every single one of those things but with the added benefit of something I’m always looking for but can rarely find. The main character being the bad guy. I am so overwhelmingly bored of the good guy winning, especially when it doesn’t reflect reality. I like stuff that subverts expectations to an extent and the expectation for me is good always triumps over evil.

So One Punch Man has been suggested to me before. What you said about the B Story is partially why I’m not interested in it.

I’ve become real fuckin’ jaded. I am so tired of heroes. I grew up on Bond who is hella flawed and has serious problems but then its just like everything got saturated with that. When I was watching Death Note I was enjoying it because the main character was the bad guy for once. Not to mention the point at which I quit meant that the bad guy won. I’m tired of heroes and of the conflict within and having to cope with that. Also I’m a Superman stan and that’s the majority of his shtick when you analyze it so I’m familiar with it as a story.

Overlord I’ve heard mentioned a lot and might sell me because he’s not necessarily a good guy. He’s just a dude.

I liked it up until L dies but from then on it just doesn’t make any sense at all and is so contrived. I mean not like the ‘plans’ that Light was coming up with were anything short of fuckin insane.

Suckers for punishment, huh? I… cannot say I relate. At least to that level of self-harm.

The funny thing is, the monologuing is what I enjoyed. The fun action, adorable creatures and badass robots are what put me off about most anime and why I haven’t seen much of it. I get very easily overstimulated by a lot of stuff happening on screen and anime often manages to trigger that stupidly easily in me. Death Note got around that by it just being a battle of wits so everything was slower and the only hyper-active moments I can really remember was the “I take a chip and I eat it” scene.

As a Trekkie I do appreciate when they go hard on the small details like that. This is a book series but Lightbringer by Brent Weeks for that insane magic system also gets my love for the same reasons.

I will consider it. Death Note snuck by me largely for reasons unknown but I can nail down a couple. One is that it was very head-y with not much in the run of visual action. One of the things that puts me off about Anime is that it can be extremely flashy. Not a complaint, again, just a thing that personally puts me off. Like a lot of stuff happening a lot on screen is visually overwhelming for me. Battle sequences in space in like Trek or Star Wars also I struggle to get through. Sometimes they’re some of my favorite things but I have to push through it because I get overstimulated really easily. Death Note just… wasn’t that. Barely any visual action and it was primarily a battle of wits.

Yeah… I quit after Watari sends a signal to an orphanage. At that point I just went “Well the rest of this is idiotic. This seems like a great point to stop.”