I had a good streak of going every 6 months for almost a decade. One day I had an appointment in the afternoon, and was on my way to the office when a line of severe thunderstorms rolled through, it was super windy, crazy thunder, and pounding rain.
The thought of sitting in the chair with tools in my mouth if the power went out was enough to send me into a panic attack. I had to pull over. I calmed myself down, turned around and went home and no-showed the appointment and ignored all their calls… That break in the routine made it REALLY hard to get back into the routine. I’m in the process of making a lot of other positive changes in my life right now, so I just need to be strong and include the thing I don’t want to do but I know I NEED to.
It’s been 2 years, I have no idea. I definitely know that I didn’t consciously choose to start hyperventilating and losing the edges of my vision… It’s not like it’s anything I worry about now, it was a highly situational kind of anxiety. I know I just need to suck it up and make an appointment.
I had a good streak of going every 6 months for almost a decade. One day I had an appointment in the afternoon, and was on my way to the office when a line of severe thunderstorms rolled through, it was super windy, crazy thunder, and pounding rain.
The thought of sitting in the chair with tools in my mouth if the power went out was enough to send me into a panic attack. I had to pull over. I calmed myself down, turned around and went home and no-showed the appointment and ignored all their calls… That break in the routine made it REALLY hard to get back into the routine. I’m in the process of making a lot of other positive changes in my life right now, so I just need to be strong and include the thing I don’t want to do but I know I NEED to.
Why is the power cutting out bad? Wouldn’t they just stop working and have you come back later?
Reasonable, logical thoughts would lead one to think that way… But unfortunately, anxiety works in mysterious ways.
But what are you anxious about? Like what do you think will happen if the power goes out?
It’s been 2 years, I have no idea. I definitely know that I didn’t consciously choose to start hyperventilating and losing the edges of my vision… It’s not like it’s anything I worry about now, it was a highly situational kind of anxiety. I know I just need to suck it up and make an appointment.